"I used to comfort myself and say, ‘Don’t let society make you feel like you need to be a certain size! You’re beautiful the way you are. You deserve nice things; you work so hard.’ Yes, I’m beautiful the way I am, but what I (and maybe even other people) need to understand is this isn’t a matter of needing self-esteem or encouragement. This is a matter of ending the stomach and head aches from indulging in food, alcohol, clothing, shoes, and handbags that I really don’t need. This is a matter of ending the anxiety attacks that come when I see on the scale that I have gained about 5 pounds in one week. Or, the anxiety that overtakes me when I realize I am going to overdraft my checking account because I decided to buy 3 Gap sweaters (same sweater in different colors). Then, the following day immediately regretting the purchase, and returning it. And this isn’t once or twice in the past few months. This is every single week."
Seriously, I started a self-help blog. Fuck.
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